You said I must eat so many lemons,
'cause I am so bitter.
I said I'd rather be with your friends mate,
cause they are much fitter
me.
I kick asses.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
[ 12:53 PM ]
I use letters to release pent-up feelings. When i was younger, and had those terrible fights with mum, i used to write angry notes to her and leave it on the dining table. But no matter how angry i was, i would always let her know that i was still sorry. Then, when boyfriends came along, i used to write letters to them. I just couldn't get through to the males in my life, and this was the only way i saw to express my anger or sadness or even happiness, towards them. Letters to friends were always easier to write, as you can pretty much write anything and get away with it. But mostly, they are filled with plenty of xoxo(s).
The most effective letters that i have written however, are the ones that i wrote to myself. Whether in the midst of exams to give me that extra morale boost or to release any stress or anger i felt towards the people around me. Instead of punching my bedroom walls or screaming or bawling my eyes out, i would write these letters. And when i read what i had written, the solutions to my problems would simply be staring back at me. Or the lack of solutions would become apparent. Recently, i realised that my problems had become overwhelming. And then i read this book that reminded me of something i used to do. So, i wrote a letter to myself, and another one to the person who was anguishing me. The problem's not solved, but the solution seems clear, and i feel much lightened.